I shall make this quick because I am on a time crunch so I can continue on my Flatland Project due next Thursday. Also, there isn’t much to report besides the same thing that happened last week. Unfortunately, I still sat out of practice all week on Sunday, Tuesday, and last night as the coaches and I came to the conclusion that I will not be competing this weekend at Sonora. I will be attending to support and whatnot but I shall not be dancing until Sunday at the earliest, Monday at the latest. Last night, I was just upset by how impactful my absence is on the routines I’m in. Our All-Male team is reduced to a trio, there’s no Giraffe in our Novelty set, and holes in our Co-Ed set where even though those are the only three routines I’m in, I was thinking about it and was overwhelmed. I didn’t feel like the team needed me as well as thinking that the team was suffering because of me. With that in mind, I was vulnerable and shed a few tears in front of the team which was not supposed to happen. Whenever my coach approaches me and asks what’s wrong, I don’t want to talk about it but the more I thought about it, the more disappointed I was in myself and the harder I was on myself for not being able to make it and be there with them. I am still using Friday night and Saturday night for the competition like the rest of them but the difference is, I will be in the stands the entire time. My coaches said it was just Sonora, meaning that it wasn’t a crucial competition but it still was a competition and I am missing it because I don’t feel ready with everything I’ve been dealing with. I should be back in by Glendale and if so, I have to work harder than ever to catch up and be on par with the rest of the team.
Sleep-wise, I had a pretty good week as I slept no later than 12:30 the majority of the week and on Wednesday night, napped from 8 PM – 1 AM and stayed up until 3:30 the next morning to finish my Psych assignment and watch a little of another movie but woke up at 7:30 instead of 6:30. It was tragic because I felt that I had enough energy to wake up on time and go to school on time but I forgot to reset my alarms as it was still on Wednesday schedule when I would have an extra hour. Thursday in general was bad, but I got out of the house at 7:35 and ran all the way to school with my backpack, stopping only at the cross-walks. And the result of my hard run was…I was a minute late. A minute. A single minute. I was at the front gate when the bell rang at 7:45 and that just killed me. On top of that, I was super sweaty so I had to endure 1st period covering myself up with my jacket and not let my body odor escape into the classroom air. I feel that my body odor would be more embarrassing than being sweaty but overall, for the most part, it was pretty good. It felt pretty natural to do the bare minimum of homework instead of getting ahead and sleep on time as I hope this habit continues.
Art-wise, we were design sketching these past few days because the technician didn’t come to fix Mr. Cepeda’s computer so he didn’t want to be inactive and gave us something random. I’ve gotten my first two compliments of the year from him yesterday and the day before because of how decent it looked as he said that I would be great at engineering. I mean, I draw as a h0bby a couple of years ago so of course I know the basics. I can take a picture and copy it but I can’t like make my own drawings. I can do certain mediums like posters, paintings, a drawing on paper that involve a certain image to be on it that I can get from Google. I admit I am not creative enough to create my own ideas but for the most part, I can do sketches of Disney characters or anime or whatever two-dimensional drawing there is. Three-dimensional is more abstract, realistic art when I am more on the animation side. This leads to my next and probably biggest art project yet that will be for Japan DDT that is coming in a week and 6 days from now as they will have a performance at snack and our team will meet and greet theirs. By the time they walk into fourth period in the gym, I want to hang it up and welcome them with a personalized poster filled with different characters such as the classic, typical anime hot-shots: Naruto, Luffy from One Piece, Hunter x Hunter. There would be Disney like Big Hero 6, taken place in San Fransokyo that has Tokyo in it, and Hello Kitty. There would be characters from Hayao Miyazaki’s famous works like Totoro, Howl’s Moving Castle, Ponyo, Secret of Arietty, and if time permits or if it isn’t too difficult, my favorite non-Miyazaki film, Kimi No Na Wa or “Your Name”. It’s an interesting film and I can definitely see why it was rated so high with its storyline and character development to provide meaning to the work as a whole. I don’t know but that’s what’s coming up as this will probably be the last project before closing off my 20-Time Project at the end of March and give myself time to prepare for my presentation of it all in May. I’ve done the basics so far but now it’s time to expand on it all. Stay tuned to hear about my progress next week.